I hate looking back at my own notes and seeing how much has not been accomplished in the last few years… And I hate the end of January. Resolution excitement has dissipated and turned into self-guilt and personal disapproval. As I look back at 2010, 2011 & 2012 resolutions, I see so many of them repeating that it’s not even worth to make them anymore.
This is a depressing post. It’s depressing because I realize that I have not lost the weight I wanted last year (gained some instead). No flat belly for me. My bible-reading goals subsided after 2 weeks. My making money online goals haven’t gone anywhere. How is it that we keep sabotaging ourselves? How is it that our motivation is so scarce?
I certainly do fear failure – which experts mention is the main reason people don’t act on things – but I wouldn’t say it’s a freezing fear. I have never been very competitive and certainly not a sore loser.
And I love my job, but how, how can I be so unmotivated to get up in the morning? I surely hope that this series I am starting, an H2O connection group from next level church might get me closer to God, closer to myself as well. I want to be in the center of my purpose, and I just feel lost.
If this will become my personal journal, here are some [more] goals for this year…
- Write every week
- Watch Lynda classes… one per week OR TeamTreehouse OR NewBoston OR Codecademy
- Hire developer to write apps for me
- Make Money online with AppEVO, BBWR & EMM
I really need to keep tabs at myself to become more of a habit maker. Good luck to me!0
Mother of three, web developer, web addict, web-everything. Love reading, writing, eating & traveling. I have recently found out success is completely unrelated to the amount of money in your bank account…